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Jul. 17th, 2005 @ 08:32 pm (no subject)
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TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:Skye Light
Birthday:September Second
Birthplace:San fransisco
Current Location:Pa.. lives in Rohnert Park
Eye Color:Dark chocolate brown
Hair Color:brown with all highlights
Height:five foot two tops
Right Handed or Left Handed:right handed
Your Heritage:stuff? Dont bother asking
The Shoes You Wore Today:Flower printed flip flops
Your Weakness:emotion
Your Fears:hurting someone i truly care for
Your Perfect Pizza:peperoni with olive ^^
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:hmmm.... Starting my motorcycle.. (( gotta be like 4000 lbs to do so))
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:lol and cool
Thoughts First Waking Up:.......
Your Best Physical Feature:eh?
Your Bedtime:if i had one id be asleep
Your Most Missed Memory:if its missed i wouldnt remember it
Pepsi or Coke:blegh, neither
MacDonalds or Burger King:double blegh
Single or Group Dates:either or, as long as cuddling enuses
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:lipton.. dunno why sounds pretty
Chocolate or Vanilla:CHOCOLATE!!!
Cappuccino or Coffee:coffee.. lots of sugar, no cream
Do you Smoke:no
Do you Swear:most often
Do you Sing:constantly, and quite well if i say so
Do you Shower Daily:yes
Have you Been in Love:yeah
Do you want to go to College:yup
Do you want to get Married:twould be fun.. if he could handle my evilness
Do you belive in yourself:on occasion
Do you get Motion Sickness:if i try to read in the car
Do you think you are Attractive:..... not really
Are you a Health Freak: nope...
Do you get along with your Parents:sometimes
Do you like Thunderstorms:yes, didnt used to, now i want to go dance in them
Do you play an Instrument:other then my voice? violin, not very good though
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:no
In the past month have you Smoked:no
In the past month have you been on Drugs:no
In the past month have you gone on a Date:this month? yeah.. was kindof depressing though
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:hell yes! a HUGE ONE! dun remmeber where though
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:ewww
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:twice! i want more
In the past month have you been on Stage:last month...
In the past month have you been Dumped:not yet- hoplfully never
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:hee id like to
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:nope
Ever been Drunk:yes
Ever been called a Tease:.. hee... that and a whore
Ever been Beaten up:yup
Ever Shoplifted:nope
Do you want to Die:i did... theni found a way to live.. GAIA! *giggle*
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:Photographer, writer, singer... orrr porn star ^^
What country would you most like to Visit:everywhere spain mostly i think
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:ice blue ^^
Favourite Hair Color:anything as long as its clean
Short or Long Hair:either or... long is preferred
Height:taller then me.. not very hard to be
Weight:average for their height..
Best Clothing Style:dont really care, as long as it isnt cross dressng.. thou it could be hot on occasion
Number of Drugs I have taken:pharmacuical? dunno.. andyhting else.. none
Number of CDs I own:50's plus
Number of Piercings:only two.. ears, im going for about ten
Number of Tattoos:none at the moment, going for five
Number of things in my Past I Regret:cant count that high...

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Jul. 15th, 2005 @ 09:33 pm FOREVER!
Current Mood: awake
Current Music: Dance Like this :D
Dude.. It had been forever!!!

I nearly forgot about this place.. lol... Lets see...


I'm in Missippi right now- going to conneticut with my dad,... driving now less.. eeek..

I'm in love at the moment, hoping it will last.. two months thus far ^^ makes me glad...

Im with a crazy crowd. but then when was i wasnt? lol heh..

And really really wanna learn how to dance, Anyone know any studios?
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Sep. 30th, 2004 @ 06:40 am News and Rantings
Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: more Jet
Alright the next chapter is comming after i get home from school... hope you like ^^

on a more pissed off note; has anyone you know pesterd you about your health? well if you have you might understand my mood as of now. i wake up this morning and take a shower as SOON as i get out (and not a millisecond later) my moms bursts out infront of me wining about me not eating enough fruits and vegatables.. im a very picky eater and wont eat muh over all unless i skip lunch and then i pig out. anyhoo.. once i tell her that she goes on how i can take the suplements that stand in for all the things i need from the fruits and vagatables (she's in that buisness) i walk into the kitchen, mother in tow still hollering about the suplements, and dad comes in and hears. he too begins telling me that i should take them, but gives me examples of what i will look like in thirty to forty years- all hunched over and dieing.. so now im getting harped at by BOTH of my parents.. and in grumpy from having a restless sleep, as usual. so i try to get them to back off as i make myself breakfast. they wont go away so i start yelling at them trying to scre them into silence, im not a pretty person when angry. my dad starts yelling and turning red and my mom cowers. i walk out and now im grounded for not EATING!....
god i hate living.
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Sep. 29th, 2004 @ 05:33 pm Book one: The other world
Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: Jet...
I swear i will love whoever helps me come up with a better title for this book !!!
i have just finished editing this chapter and will post the second chapter tomarrow, friday at the latest... hope you enjoy, reveiw please...

The Other World

Chapter One; fireworks?


The halls of Riverside High echoed with the sound of crashing, squeals, and shouts as a blonde young woman of about five foot seven hurtled herself through the crowded mass. “Hey, Tammie!” she called out to a woman standing by the sky blue lockers.
An exasperated girl of seventeen turned her piercing green eyes upon the clumsy blond head dashing toward her. “how many times have I told you that I LOATHE that name and never wish to hear it again? I mean what heppend to my real name ‘hello, Tamora’?” She mock glared at the now sheepish girl who stood three feet away. “It’s alright, Lassa, I don’t hate you-” she began.
“just yet.” Tamora turned to see her friend, Jetta leaning on a locker smirking, her hip length black hair hung down barley a wave in the dark tresses. Her dark pruple eyes showed little emotion, due to a hard childhood, but today even her smirk reached her eyes.
Tamora smiled and walked over to Jetta, giving her a small hug before being takled by the blonde streak of color that was lassa. Jetta smiled at her friends and began to walk out to a large grassy area by the foolball field
Tamora grinned and sat down on the grass streaching long slender legs out infront of her, her long blue skirt bunching up as she moved. “I wonder how it is that we manage to finish eachothers sentances all the time..: she took out a small sandwich from her mesh bag and began to eat it.
“Because, we have known eachother long enough that we know exactly what to say to get lassa to chill.” Jetta reminded her as Lassa mimicked her, they’d had this disscussion numerous times over their friendship.
Lassa stood tall and with her bright blue-grey eyes shining with laughter she exclaimed, “I think that you two are just psycic…” And she waved her thin ingers at the other girls. Tamora giggled, brown shoulder length hair moving in unison with her trembling.
“Hey!” Tamora a moment later, having forgotten about her pysicic powers. “What are you guys doing tomorrow night? I heard that the science presentation is going to be wonderful!”
Lassa grinned. “ I heard that the teachers are going to set off homemade fireworks!” she looked delighted at the thought of Mrs. Kinnagan, their history and least favorite teacher, blowing off the stage due to the miss lighting of a firework.
“Well, you know my new folks, they don’t care as long as they get paid.” Jetta said with a pang of disgust. Everyone new that Jetta had the worst luck in the school with family, both of her parents died in a plane crash and since she was six years old she had been bouncing between different foster families. “I’m in.” she smiled and pulled her own lunch out of her black backpac. As soon as she had pulled out her chocolate milk, Lassa had snatched it away, Jetta shruged.
“So am I.” Lassa said, slirping loudly on her milk. “I wouldn’t miss this event for the world! What time and where?” they all looked at each other.
“ How ‘bout my house at five and then we can drive to the presentation form there?” Tamora suggested. They all agreed.
“ Hey rejec
“ oh Lassa?!” a snobbish voice called. The girls turned to see Saria, the most popular girl in school and her pets, wel at least in their minds, Kea and Aoi, sniggering at them. “I heard that you got turned down from a job? I mean your probibly a nice kid and all but I don’t think theyd hire you, unless you put out! Whore.” They laughed and started to walk away.
“Bitch…”Jetta growled. “If she had even an ounce of intellegence she’d see that being the person she is is only going to get her as far as her mother; knoked up with a whore and having to fuck strange men for spare money- wait! She does that for fun.” the three of them smiled, lassa hugging Jetta. Sadly Saria heard.
“ You mocking me?” she hissed turning around.
“ No, not mocking you, I only say what I see.. im an honest person unlike yourself.”Jetta growled, standing up from the grass and walking closer. “ now go do the whoreish thing to do and go get your boyfriend to come and beat my ass, don’t worry, he’ll find out what kind of things you do for fun soon enough.”
Saria hissed again and called out to the foot ball players, a large man of eighteen wearing a balck teshirt and jeans walked over. “something wrong hun?” Sarias boyfriend kneeled down and she wisprd her problem into his ear. “ oh she is is she..” she glread at Jetta, who just shook her head and assumed a fighting stance, Brain; Sara’s “man” did the same, then lunged. Jetta dodged, and kicked him in the back, sending him face-first into the dirt.
After a few more blows, the fight was over. Lassa, Tamora, and Jetta began to walk home, Jetta sporting a bloody lip and what would unmistakably become a black eye yet she was smiling, it had been a long time since she really had anything to smile about. She grinned wider as Lassa went over the battle blow by blow with excitement wile Tamora lectured her about how she could have killed herself.
The next evening, the three girls set out from Tamora’s’ house at five, a half an hour before the performance was supposed to start. They arrived early to the presentation and were admited early. They looked around at the old warehouse, the people who had been sent to clen had obviously done a hurried job, cobwebs still hoverd in places a person would miss if not totally focused.
“ Oh welcome!” a voice called from the semi darkness. The girls turned to see an old woman with one eye hobbling over to them; in her hand she carried three necklaces, one green, one blue and one clear. She offered one of them to each girl in turn, and each girl refused, they had been taught better than that. “I see, well consider it a gift from an old friend in good faith.” once again she offered them and this time Lassa cautiously reached out to the blue one.”You,” she pointed to Tamora. “This is yours.” She handed her the clear medallion.
“So I take it that the green one’s mine.” Jetta said and the woman nodded.
“Put them on.” She commanded. They obeyed, somewhat confused on why they where doing this, but they felt obligated to just try, and this odd woman, she seemed to need their trust.
Suddenly they felt a warmth spread from where the necklaces lay to the tips of their fingers, they looked at the space where the once old and ugly woman stood and saw, instead of a haggard and battered hag, a beautiful woman of no more that twenty. She smiled sadly and held out her hand, then disappeared.
“What the-“ but what Lassa yelled. But the rest was lost as they were engulfed in a bright light and hurtiling through darkness and light till a tiny orb felw closer to their weightless bodys.
END

hope you liked the first chapter ^^ if you find any spelling errors please let me know so i may fix them, i have three chapters, once i post the third chapter i will be looking for ideas on where to go, if you have an idea as of now please let me know i may be able to use it later on in the story and i will thank you in it ^^

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Sep. 29th, 2004 @ 05:24 pm Book one: The other world
Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: Jet...
I swear i will love whoever helps me come up with a better title for this book !!!
i have just finished editing this chapter and will post the second chapter tomarrow, friday at the latest... hope you enjoy, reveiw please...

The Other World

Chapter One; fireworks?


The halls of Riverside High echoed with the sound of crashing, squeals, and shouts as a blonde young woman of about five foot seven hurtled herself through the crowded mass. “Hey, Tammie!” she called out to a woman standing by the sky blue lockers.
An exasperated girl of seventeen turned her piercing green eyes upon the clumsy blond head dashing toward her. “how many times have I told you that I LOATHE that name and never wish to hear it again? I mean what heppend to my real name ‘hello, Tamora’?” She mock glared at the now sheepish girl who stood three feet away. “It’s alright, Lassa, I don’t hate you-” she began.
“just yet.” Tamora turned to see her friend, Jetta leaning on a locker smirking, her hip length black hair hung down barley a wave in the dark tresses. Her dark pruple eyes showed little emotion, due to a hard childhood, but today even her smirk reached her eyes.
Tamors smiled and walked over to Jetta, giving her a small hug before being takled by the blonde strake of color that was lassa. Jetta smiled at her friends and began to walk out to a large grassy area by the foolball field
Tamora grinned and sat down on the grass streaching long slender legs out infront of her, her long blue skirt bunching up as she moved. “I wonder how it is that we manage to finish eachothers sentances all the time..: she took out a small sandwich from her mesh bag and began to eat it.
“Because, we have known eachother long enough that we know exactly what to say to get lassa to chill.” Jetta reminded her as Lassa mimicked her, they’d had this disscussion numerous times over their friendship.
Lassa stood tall and with her bright blue-grey eyes shining with laughter she exclaimed, “I think that you two are just psycic…” And she waved her thin ingers at the other girls. Tamora giggled, brown shoulder length hair moving in unison with her trembling.
“Hey!” Tamora a moment later, having forgotten about her pysicic powers. “What are you guys doing tomorrow night? I heard that the science presentation is going to be wonderful!”
Lassa grinned. “ I heard that the teachers are going to set off homemade fireworks!” she looked delighted at the thought of Mrs. Kinnagan, their history and least favorite teacher, blowing off the stage due to the miss lighting of a firework.
“Well, you know my new folks, they don’t care as long as they get paid.” Jetta said with a pang of disgust. Everyone new that Jetta had the worst luck in the school with family, both of her parents died in a plane crash and since she was six years old she had been bouncing between different foster families. “I’m in.” she smiled and pulled her own lunch out of her black backpac. As soon as she had pulled out her chocolate milk, Lassa had snatched it away, Jetta shruged.
“So am I.” Lassa said, slirping loudly on her milk. “I wouldn’t miss this event for the world! What time and where?” they all looked at each other.
“ How ‘bout my house at five and then we can drive to the presentation form there?” Tamora suggested. They all agreed.
“ Hey rejec
“ oh Lassa?!” a snobbish voice called. The girls turned to see Saria, the most popular girl in school and her pets, wel at least in their minds, Kea and Aoi, sniggering at them. “I heard that you got turned down from a job? I mean your probibly a nice kid and all but I don’t think theyd hire you, unless you put out! Whore.” They laughed and started to walk away.
“Bitch…”Jetta growled. “If she had even an ounce of intellegence she’d see that being the person she is is only going to get her as far as her mother; knoked up with a whore and having to fuck strange men for spare money- wait! She does that for fun.” the three of them smiled, lassa hugging Jetta. Sadly Saria heard.
“ You mocking me?” she hissed turning around.
“ No, not mocking you, I only say what I see.. im an honest person unlike yourself.”Jetta growled, standing up from the grass and walking closer. “ now go do the whoreish thing to do and go get your boyfriend to come and beat my ass, don’t worry, he’ll find out what kind of things you do for fun soon enough.”
Saria hissed again and called out to the foot ball players, a large man of eighteen wearing a balck teshirt and jeans walked over. “something wrong hun?” Sarias boyfriend kneeled down and she wisprd her problem into his ear. “ oh she is is she..” she glread at Jetta, who just shook her head and assumed a fighting stance, Brain; Sara’s “man” did the same, then lunged. Jetta dodged, and kicked him in the back, sending him face-first into the dirt.
After a few more blows, the fight was over. Lassa, Tamora, and Jetta began to walk home, Jetta sporting a bloody lip and what would unmistakably become a black eye yet she was smiling, it had been a long time since she really had anything to smile about. She grinned wider as Lassa went over the battle blow by blow with excitement wile Tamora lectured her about how she could have killed herself.
The next evening, the three girls set out from Tamora’s’ house at five, a half an hour before the performance was supposed to start. They arrived early to the presentation and were admited early. They looked around at the old warehouse, the people who had been sent to clen had obviously done a hurried job, cobwebs still hoverd in places a person would miss if not totally focused.
“ Oh welcome!” a voice called from the semi darkness. The girls turned to see an old woman with one eye hobbling over to them; in her hand she carried three necklaces, one green, one blue and one clear. She offered one of them to each girl in turn, and each girl refused, they had been taught better than that. “I see, well consider it a gift from an old friend in good faith.” once again she offered them and this time Lassa cautiously reached out to the blue one.”You,” she pointed to Tamora. “This is yours.” She handed her the clear medallion.
“So I take it that the green one’s mine.” Jetta said and the woman nodded.
“Put them on.” She commanded. They obeyed, somewhat confused on why they where doing this, but they felt obligated to just try, and this odd woman, she seemed to need their trust.
Suddenly they felt a warmth spread from where the necklaces lay to the tips of their fingers, they looked at the space where the once old and ugly woman stood and saw, instead of a haggard and battered hag, a beautiful woman of no more that twenty. She smiled sadly and held out her hand, then disappeared.
“What the-“ but what Lassa yelled. But the rest was lost as they were engulfed in a bright light and hurtiling through darkness and light till a tiny orb felw closer to their weightless bodys.
END

hope you liked the first chapter ^^ if you find any spelling errors please let me know so i may fix them, i have three chapters, once i post the third chapter i will be looking for ideas on where to go, if you have an idea as of now please let me know i may be able to use it later on in the story and i will thank you in it ^^

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Sep. 29th, 2004 @ 04:25 pm Feelin' Artistic~!!
Current Mood: artistic
yea you read it right, if i spelled it right that is... i feel like writing another story.... well i eel like starting another one.. i have to many that ive just thrown by the wayside... i think i might post it and other ones here... like you know a chapter thingy
i think ill do that with my olderones while i write my new ones sounds good? i hope so cuz i will later today...

and i ve noticed my mood swings alot really fast, oh well im happy at this moment in time ^^


toodles babes ^^
Baby
Brown goose (thanks Steve)
Sexiqueen (now thats a good pet name..)

Letter of the day: h
hour of the day: 13
Word of the day: yar
Number of the day: 2
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Sep. 28th, 2004 @ 07:22 pm Hello Love =^_^=
Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: the killers..
Yup that would be a kitty kitty ^^ meow *giggles* i have too much time on my hands....

Virgo
Ever had a race between a snail and a banana slug? It takes a long time. So long you might fall asleep waiting, if the slug weren't so darn bright and yellow! But there's nothing you can do to speed it up.

Does anyone understand that?!? i was so confused when i read that i read it over and over until i could recite it for a little while and still don't think i get this... awe foopy. i don't really care right now im tired.



Word of the day: Smeeth (curtosy of Lindsay, ask her if you wanna know what it means ^^;; )

Letter of the day: J

Number of the day: 1002

Phrase of the day: "nitwit oddment, blubber, tweak"

lemme be odd, im going to do this (blank) of the day thing everyonce and a while due to boredom.. yea


WEEEEE
BOOGA BOOGA BOOGA^^
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Sep. 27th, 2004 @ 08:43 pm Don't you hate...
Current Mood: angry
Current Music: Hammerfall- untitled ^^
Posers!!!! and whats worse.. MY BROTHER IS ONE!!!!-_-***** i could kill him.... i know its probibly something about me being his older sister so he likes everything i do.. but come on!!! i got a new pair of shoes ( something i hadnt the privlege of for five years..) and he has to get yet another pair this year bringing this years grand total to three pairs excluding the several others he aready has (and fits)... then it comes to style of clothes... it might just be a phase but i swear he wears the same colors i do!!! >:( he HATES metallica.. and says he loves them, but when i play them he screams "TURN THAT CRAP OFF BEFORE I MAKE YOU!!" i don't understand it!!!
he laughs at me when he goes out with my parents money and buys the things i want and i get mad, because I have to go out and EARN my money then go out ON MY OWN ( i don't know how to drive so its walking an hour and half wehereas he gets a ride.) and buy it... if i am missing tax i better hope to god that the person is nice enough to let me get away without paying tax or im walking home empty handed.. then i get in trouble for being "unresonable" wasnt i the one who had to walk in the fucking hot or rain to go and try to buy something and ended up not being able to because somone couldnt spare a buck!?!?!? he finds it funny that he "likes" my music.. of course thats after i have raved about how badly i want this cd... and then he throws the cd (wich i was in love with to begin with) either in the trash or he fucks it up to where you cant possibly play it anymore, and says " it was a shitty cd anyway" in front of me, and i worship the cd....
and he gets away with it... where i have to let my brother burn my cds, and he trashes my origonals, so i cant play them, and wont burn his copy so i have something to play. " why do you need another copy of the same cd?.... i broke it? you fucking lier i didnt!!! mom!!! " and i get grounded...

life sucks i think ill kill something.
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Sep. 21st, 2004 @ 07:47 pm *insane laugh*
Current Mood: bouncy
so Schools a bitch but my life rulz, i think..... i hope ^^;;;


so randomness huh??? umm
PENISWRINKLE!!!
lol sorry all...


fishticks
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Sep. 16th, 2004 @ 09:47 pm RANDOMNESS!! lol ^^
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: my self baby ^^
i just got told im crazy ^^ coolio! i love it.. sorry things went really well today; dont ask how they just did, and i diched my homework.. i loathe it so im not gonna do it.
Mr. Steffy is going to be stuck with me till the end of the semester, then im going into honors english!! go me! my friend brenda is crushing on a guy, who has WAY to many gal pals if you ask me, but i shouldnt be talking with all my guy friends...

oh well im happy dont ask why but i am^^


IM NOT PREGNANT!!!
but hey would i be? i didnt fuck no one HA! lol im soo hyped up on sugar right now ^^

Last weekend i went with Steve to go see without a paddle twas funny, and we saw anacondas, either that movie was scary or i have turned into a movie wuss cause i screamed.. then i saw Resident Evil two.. wich i loved ^^ and a screamed in as well -_- im starting to doubt my movie guts.. oh well..

KEEP ON CHUGGIN BUGS!!

bugaboo

Baby ^^
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Sep. 15th, 2004 @ 06:28 pm FUCKING DRAMA!!
wee dramas hella fun isnt it!? FUCKING NOT! heres a joyful week no?
1. went to Iasiahs house to chill and almost had sex, i backed out and then he stopped talking to me. we didnt do anything other then kiss and hold hands.

2. when he stopped talking to me i knew somethin was wrong and tried to talk to him about it- he ignores me.

3. he tells Heather all this bull and half truths about what i have been saying and she yells at me till i can tell her my side. now shes mad at him too, well i think she is she could just be lieing to me and shit.

4. some kid my brother knows has been going around saying him and i are going to fuck, I DONT EVEN KNOW THE KID!.. and the only person that gives a rats ass is my brother.

ugh i cant do anything right now
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Sep. 5th, 2004 @ 09:18 pm crap
Current Mood: flirty
Current Music: myself and Lindsay (( when i can..)) doing the DORK DANCE!!
ugh im having such a crazy day..
Yesterday i went to a BBQ in San Carlos and saw people i havent seen in five years. i felt so out of place at first then people and i started talking. i hung with my friends Ian and Craig, both of wich are the sexahs ((so true guys ~_^)) it took me and hour or so to accually go and talk to them but after that it was sick. i was stalked by a little girl in first grade the whole time, we had to hide from her.. and then older people found us xD it was great...
We got into trouble too :'( Ian was on his computer and Craig and I were on the bed because there were no other places to sit and I leaned onto Craig because im the snuggly person i am and he was soo COMFY!!my head was on his chest and my feet were going out in the direction his arms would be going if they where pushed out. i love Craig sooo much <3 hes so soft *giggles* ugh im hopless... ANYHOO, Craigs mommy walked in and said something then left, a few minutes later my mom came up and wanted to talk to me and said his mom freaked out because i was ON TOP OF HIM >:( i was not i was leaning my head on his chest, and i was comfy... so his mom freaked and my mom freaked and i went back up stairs and wanted to lean on Craig again but i KNEW they were going to come back up and i don't need to be grounded.. again... so i didn't :'( oh well.. maybe another time.
Ian was really quiet.. he didnt used to be so silent around me as far as i can remember.. i mean ive known this guy since i was born for gods sake! why was he so quiet?? i wonder... i don't know if it would be worth my time asking, he might blow it off even though he doesnt seem the time to do that.. even in my sahort ammount of experiance i know most guys dont act like they should -_-(( AKA: Izzy the asshole))
Anyway, i had fun and they did too so they are coming to my homecoming this year, its gonna be great!! no more b/f's being ass's im free!!!! lol i had sugar a little today and doughnuts are yummy. i got back from the BBQ at one or so in the morning and got on the IM to chat with my "new" friends! i went to bed at around six because they left at three-ish and there was a HUGE spider in my room, i had to hunt it and kill it... i didnt mean to kill it over all but i did anyway, it attacked me, i had no choice i tell you!!! lol well i better get going, hopefully i get to talk to the sexahs tonight ~_^

love too all of yous
Baby
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Sep. 5th, 2004 @ 11:15 am ~*~Poetry~*~
Current Mood: accomplished
ok i couldnt wait so here goes pretty much all of my poetry, thats worth showing that is ^^ i think I'll put little comments after each one... so you know a little bit about the "story" behind it if any.. most of these i think were done in bordom or depression.. here goes:

FLAMES

~Nothing matters anymore,
You had to go and change the score.
You pulled me down and made me see,
All the things they go to be.
~The things they must always be,
Hate, disloyal, pain, mystery.
The fire cracks upon my skin,
Not burning on; but within.
~Hot red flames sear my soul,
No ones here I’m all alone.
The room, alight with flame and pain,
My tears ran dry- are flames again.
~Flames drip down my cheeks and chin,
Burning trials through my skin.
My fiery tears belong in jars,
Reminders of my causeless scars.

((AN: have you ever cried and felt a kind of burning sensation from the tears? I have so I wrote this, I cry for small reasons, so I feel that my tears are causless, and if tears burn my face is a mess… lol))

Do I love you?

Do I love you?
You want to know
Didn’t you know
How my feelings grow?
Didn’t you feel the trust?
I did.
Many times ago?

Do I love you?
My mind once asked
I answered “yes”
In a flash
And many many moons had past
Before I doubted so

Do I love you?
I cried with tears
Problems bottled
Over the years
Only to explode
Upon remembrance
Not two weeks ago

Do I love you?
I said out loud
Mocking teasing
Hiding shroud
Before letting
My walls fall down
Just a day ago

“Do you love me?”
I cry to you
Pleading to you
The tell the truth
Hoping praying
For those three words…
….
But it wasn’t so.

((I was tempted to kill this one..stupid ex boyfriends/girlfriends that you think you fell in love with and then they say they never loved you… oi drama is a bitch))

CONTROL
I feel it right there
It hurts so bad
Life’s just not fair
And missing you is sad
'‘Cause you were never mine to hold
and you never wished my dream
you could say it’s cowardice
but I know what I’ve seen
I saw you look at her
Passion in your soul
And I saw you hold her hand
My heart feels like a hole
‘Cause I told you how I felt
And I was just blown off
And now your romance time has come
You can forget letting me down soft
‘Cause I heard what you said
Those many months ago
Since then my heart became like led
Until I let it go
Oh how realization hit me
When I learned I was sold
I could never leave you
I am under your control

((I had a crush on some guy and this is what I felt would happen…course we both hate eachother now..funny how things like that happen no?))

LOCKED
i look about my prizion, hating all the outside,
willing my dreams to take me away,
dont leave me here to die,
i look around my world, nothing but walls and rules,
no color no play things never sway,
a world to saticfy fools,
so why stay in this prizion?
no way to find escape,
from what ive heard the outside is no better,
filled with hate and rape,
so ill look about my prizon hating the outsside world ,
but because of the way it treats it self, not of how my lifes unfurled

((ok I have no idea whay I wrote this!! I did it in spanish 1 last year in the morning as the fog was rolling around the school, it was a pretty scene with the morning light and all and I wanted to write about it, this is what I got… kinda fucked up?))

MIRROR
hate you hate me, hate this fucked up world,
forced to belive i dont hate this girl,
look in the miror, see her sweet fake smile,
makes you think she is worth your while,
oh the foolery, oh the bliss, what is here, whats amiss?
you see her smile does not reach her eyes,
it showes the truth in her fucked up lies,
you see the trails that roll down her cheeks,
her tears are there, they just arn’t seen,
you know how she cries when she's alone,
you know how she is voilent prone,
i hate this girl lost lock and key,
i hate that girl for she is me.

((two words or one with a hyphen: self loathing))

REMEMBER
As you walk out the door
I remember before
When we loved, once so long
Once we loved, time long gone

When the stars shined
And we were one of a kind
Where, in your arms alone I found
Solace in a world; hell-bound

When I was that girl, the light in your eyes
And everything we did was full of surprise
the tears I cried were wiped from my eyes
Their trails kissed away
When the world would spin faster, locked In our embrace
Up at the stars, together we’d gaze

Remember the old

Now you have a new mate
You’ve tried to lock the fate
Sealing you two together
She’s “the one” you say
But will she last ‘till judgement day?
Things go fine
We must be kind
For we are still friends
“no matter the hardships,
friendships cannot end”
it hurts to see
her with you and you without me
but I’ll still try
to refrain and not cry

remember the new

keep my love, hollow it away
so you can remember on that rainy day
that my tears run dry and that girl has left
and all you have are my old benefits
when the sun is gone and stars stop shining
when the moon collapses and I’ve quit my pining
I love you never, never again
I made that mistake once
I try to forgive
I try to forget
I try to remember our old outings met
Sadly for me
First loves will never be forgotten
So,

Remember the old
Remember the new
Remember our love, I know you want to.

((super shitty long one.. I wanted to make it sort of a theme…. It went long and I think it goes on too long, take one guess what its about?))


DO

Cold all around me
Bars keeping me in.
My cell grows ever darker.

Outside I can see
I’m not locked in by sin
I’m kept by anger.

Choice is mine now
Bite my lip- Stay inside
Or leave this cell- somehow

Not somehow.

Leave this cell by leaving you
Do I really want to?
Leave this cell and start anew?

Yes.

No.

The choices are so
Aggravating I know
Not what to
Do.

I know
Not what
To

Do.

(( I was in one of THOSE moods… it’s the only one ive ever written like this… kindof in a different format, I like it iu think.))

AS IF OF STONE

A blow so painful it could kill
But I’ll fold it away again
Because it is my will
You can beat me with your words
Till I begin to bleed
But you will never know my pain
I will not let you see
I’ve given up trying to prove
My friendship I could share
So now I must resort
to treat them just as fair
my emotions I now hide
from prying eyes and thought
so I’ll never be hurt again
this is what they’ve got
the pain they brought upon me
will make me feel alone
so to keep my friends from worry
I act as if I’m stone
My heart is broken,
My soul now crushed
I long for you

((heh this one brings back too many memories, that are so not the nicest.. its about hiding how you feel for others, and having it thrown back in your face))

LASTING LOVE

Keep my token,
My heart that is broken
And long for me too

Tears flow
Life fades
Yet my love stands strong

Years go
In a haze
Does your love last long?

((heh, another one of those loser boyfriends that I should have dumped ages ago, hes gone now tho so its all good ^^))

WATER
Above the water
I glimpse you there
Waiting and watching
And hoping I’m there.

I climb above water
Beginning to play
Praying I can
Come and join you someday.

I long to be with you
I long to be free
But one thing holds back
I am where I should be.

My heart aches for you
My soul cries out please
But I cannot lie
Give into my envies.

I beg to love you
I want to know how
But your too far away
I have no chance now.

I pray for new chance
One I wont lose
But chance wont be granted
Chance only abused.

You walk closer to me
A smile in your eyes
My heart beats ever faster
As you see though my lies.

I run into your embrace
My weight pulls us down
I can’t lie to you anymore
I can’t let my love drown.

((probibly the only semi happy one I got.. I like it ^^))


MONSTERS
Useless monsters in my head,
Run campains around my bed.
Dreamless sleep turns into death,
Knowing all the monsters depth.
Creatures of unholy nights,
Fight for love and turn off lights.
Sinful victims fall alone,
Benith a patrons killer drone.
Lost and found make differnce none,
For both will die from this killers gun.
Forces of evil and good untie,
Killing all who stand and fight.
Waking up in sweat and fear,
Please great goddess,
Keep my monsters far from here.

(( lol about the monsters in our minds, our own problems that try and take over))


MUTILATION
It hurts me so but feels better then crying
The fire burns longer
I must stop! I must!
But cant
Become dependant on fire.
Frustration builds
Not satisfied again
I push fatally deeper.
Fire pours on- never ending
Till it’s all I see
Know that’s its wrong
And bad a cruel
But cannot stop
My depression tool
Relieves me of tears
And pain that is caused.
Destroys all my fears.
Gone to far this time.
Pain causes tears
Fire is all till black- deep black
And thus – no more.

((*looks at title* take a guess.. just one I betcha you can get it))

NO LONGER
My tears, no longer flowing
My mind, no longer knowing
My heart, no longer showing
Of what I felt for you.
My soul, no longer crying
My mouth, no longer sighing
Myself will stop denying
That what I felt was true

((don’t ask I don’t know myslef))

UNTITLED ONE
Waves of sadness wash over me,
Blocking all mine eyes can see.
Broken heart left to die,
Let me bleed, let me lie.
Tears that burn, sear me so,
Wanting to be freed, let go.
I will not cry, I will not weep,
I lock my heart away, so it only I keep.
Share not my self,
Share not my love.
I’ll stay here,
Thrice cursing the skys above.

((I was depressed (again) that’s all I can say, if you can think of a title ill love you forever^^))

THE WATCHER. ((formaly untitled two))
Wisperd words in the ears,
Condem us to our foulest fears.
Dead, lost eyes meet fearing brown,
Doomed to existance of those hell bound.
Love and hate are now as one,
She shot her lover with a rusted gun.
Children die before they breathe,
From their killer mothers’ daunting greed.
Heed this warning: do nothing bad,
Those you harm may not get mad.
But I, the watcher see all you do,
Heed my warning, or I’ll come after you.

((I hate people who kill for unjust reasons… and other evil things, and I think there should be a person or persons who go after them, but once they did, they would become bad too, theyd have to punish themselves too huh? Hmm this world is fucked over no?))
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Sep. 5th, 2004 @ 11:09 am last one?
ok, this is the last one or two ok?
I'm Air
Element Air. You are happy, loves to travel to all
kinds of places. Your power amplifier is the
Sky, your protective stone is the Cristal. You
like the Crescent Moon and your special power
is to fly.


Which element (or double element) control your mind and heart?(with anime girls pics)
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Sep. 5th, 2004 @ 02:37 am Yet MORE quizzes.. lets just say its too early for anything interesting for you all yet.
Current Mood: sleepy
Ice Goddess
Goddess of Ice. You are something of a loner and
keep to yourself, but are not hateful. You love
the snow and frost.


What Goddess Are You? (Girls)
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Goddess of Fire. You are hot-tempered and wild. You
love blazing fire.


What Goddess Are You? (Girls)
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Goddess of Wisdom. You are very intelligent and
maybe worry too much about your studies. You
love to read.


What Goddess Are You? (Girls)
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Goddess of the Moon. You are usually somewhat sad
or solemn, but no one knows why. You love the
luminous glow of the moon.


What Goddess Are You? (Girls)
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Guardian of the Earth - mistress of the woods and
master of the wild and untamed.


What are you Guardian of?
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Night Fairy
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Which Fairy are you?(for anyone many out comes)
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that looks like all for now.. maybe you know a little more about me but i doubt it... the one i really wanyed ((wepons)) didnt want to load, if only.. then youd know what id come after you with if you pissed me off... j/k!j/k! lol sorry its too early for me to be nice and sweet to every one.. you all should know my friends ^^
Kisses,
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Sep. 5th, 2004 @ 02:23 am more quizzes
Current Mood: amused
You represent... hope.
You represent... hope.
You're quite a daydreamer and can be a hopeless
romantic. You enjoy being creative and don't
mind being alone at times. You have goals, and
know what you want in life... even if they are
a little far fetched.


What feeling do you represent?
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The Merciless Child


What sign of the Black Zodiac are you?
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Arianrhod is the Celtic goddess of the full moon
(or the 'silver wheel'), of reincarnation, and
of the Wheel of the Year. You are mysterious
and serene, yet you can be stubborn and even
cruel.


What Celtic Goddess are You? (With pictures)
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very fucked.


what fucked version of hello kittie are you?
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Element Earth. You are very kind and gentle. You
love all kinds of animals and plants. Your
power amplifier are the stars, your protective
stone is the Green Quartz. You like the New
Moon and your special power is to talk to any
animal or plant.


Which element (or double element) control your mind and heart?(with anime girls pics)
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Sep. 5th, 2004 @ 02:17 am ton o quizzes due to boredom
Current Mood: bored
light fairy
You are like the light fairy. She beleives only in
comfort and happiness. She ahs the power to
make people happy and comfortable in the
darkest of times. She loves all beings equally,
but when she is not needed, she can also be
annoying, she follows people, and is too much
of a goody goody, and can drive people
nuts!!!!!!!! That is all the major things about
the Light fairy. can you relate to some of
them? You probably can, because that is what
this quiz is for!


**The ultimate Fairy quiz**(anime pics!) for girls, but if you are a guy you can take it too! !**being improved more**!
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Your scent is... Pherose by Realm. A soft scent
that is extremely powerful. You may look like
just another outcast but you are creative and
intelligent. Those who truely know you, love
you and those who don't know you think you're
just a freak or that person they've met before.
You don't like to let many people in but the
few you do are highly privileged. Please rate
^-^


What scent are you?
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You are the Goddess of Earth. You are very stable
and dependable since the Goddesses rest apon
you. You are very materialistic. Somtime cold
and distant, but that might be because you need
to get what needs to be done, done. But yet you
are everyone elses strength. You are the most
Stable of the Goddesses, since without you the
other Goddesses would not exist.
Other Earth Goddesses: Ceres, Cerridwyn, Demeter,
Gaia, Persephone, Epona, Kore, Mah, Prithivi,
Rhea, Rhiannon


Which of the Four Elemental Goddesses are you?(With Pics)
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You're Element is Fire. You have a strong,
independant, fiery personality and you
obviously don't ley other's puch you around.
You like being in charge and don't care what
other people think. In fact, you like to stand
out and be yourself. You're probably shy when
people first meet you but your a ball of energy
that could explode at any given moment. You
like to laugh and whether you admit it or not,
you like to fight. You're peronality that is
wild and untamable. You're beauty is physically
fit and a little sexy and you have a very
pretty face.


What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
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You're Element is Night. You're a loner who is very
creative but never show your work to anyone.
You may smile a little but sadness or
loneliness surround you and other can feel it
when they're near you. You have a dark or
unusual beauty that makes you mysterious and
you probably have a lot of secrets that you've
never told anyone. You're beauty is intriging
and unorthidox but the real thing that makes
you special is your eyes. Something in them
makes them like Diamonds in the Rough.


What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
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Your a Magical Angel!Out of all the angels, you are
the one most afflicted with magic. You can do
many enchantments as well as sorcery. You cant
do black magic, because even though your not so


What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures!
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Aug. 31st, 2004 @ 08:41 pm ~*~ Poke~*~
Current Mood: bouncy
~*~
i think im gonna put more poetry in here.... maybe, reply to find some!! i need three postitive replys in order for me to post one poem ^^ heh i dunno if anyone will but it will be fun^^

toodles
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Aug. 20th, 2004 @ 07:18 pm PAAAIINNN :'(
Current Mood: sore
owie, i gotmy wisdom teeth removed yesterday, i miss my food, :'( im stuck in bed for the next few days, and my face looks like a pumkin -_- i loathe having surgury. it didnt hurt or nuthing, i was awake and everything. but i hate being puffy!!! >:(
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Aug. 15th, 2004 @ 11:53 am *glomps* ^-^
Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: none my brother wont let me play any -_-
soo heya all!! weeee......
going school shopping today -_-** only highlight about it is im going cloths shopping with C and hes the best!! he and i were talking a few days ago and was all " im gonna pick out a shirt and youll be all 'why?' and ill say ' it makes you look slim' and you will get all mad cuz your hella skinny and i said something that made you think fat" lol ^^
i love my guy friends :D
so i only have to deal with my parents when i shop for everything other then clothes.... hmm...... fun
and the issue with D is over.. hes not worth my breath so whats the point in wasting it to kill him?? my friends will do it anyway -_- not even waiting to see if i'll ask or not...oh well his loss. ^^
ack! im on my brothers computer and im sitting on this TINY stool... my ass hurts -_- owie.... *cries*

so yea got to go shoping weeee! -_-
love to you all
Lilith
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